Thursday, December 30, 2010

Judgement

Judgement- definition from wiki.
Definition is the evaluation of evidence in the making of a decision.
Before I become auditor, I was keep telling myself, don't make any judgement on anything.
People like to make judgement no matter good or bad, but normally is bad. I don't know why, is that because we are too ego to think that other people is not prefect as we do?
No matter good judgement or bad judgement, it is a judgement based on our own mindset. Somehow, no matter how hard I told myself not to make any bad judgement on anything or anyone, or not to rush to any conclusion to anyone or anything, but I do make judegement on someone/something, just the matter I keep the judgement inside my heart. I hate being like that.
But these few days, I was being teach how to make judgement or when do we need to judge. It's quite irony for me. I was telling myself not to make any judegement previously, but when I become auditor, I been taught it's sometime need to make reasonable judgement on certain thing. Even the judgement is in a diffrent perspective.
I was like.... if I want to be reponsible auditor, I need to let myself go... change my personality... take everything hard... not to say I'm not responsible, just I would like make my life happy go lucky. But it seems like if I take thing easy, I won't be the good and responsible auditor.
What an irony life......

写意的生活

一直以来,我很想去流浪,不只是想要那种随波逐流的感觉,还有那种让自己完全自由的生活。

半年以内,我完全没有旅行,即使那种cuti cuti malaysia也没有,去了KL几天,主要都是为了陪家人。
我。。。真的不敢相信自己。。。这样性格的自己竟然能够在这半年以内,一直重复着同样的生活,是我长大了?还是我也变得现实了?

最近几个月,我有一种很强烈很强烈的感觉,就是很希望自己打开那扇窗就能够看到一片海,或则一片草原,然后只是很安静躺在那儿,看着天空,享受空气的味道,任由自己胡思乱想,没有牵挂地让自己防空。。。。。。

其实,我只是希望有个写意的生活,或则对很多人来说,这只是个梦,或许有很多人觉得我这是没有上进心。。

可是谁在乎?

可是我现在做的。。。正和我想要的完全相反。。。。

我是为了过日子而过日子吗?